Dream Dark Stories

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  • Day Two Hundred and Ninety-Seven, February 16th, 2025 pt. 2 & Prompt Soup #0.76

    What alternative career paths have you considered or are interested in?

    Hi-ho and hello.

    I want to help others. Not just that I want to be a beneficial point for each person I meet on the job in an effective and transformative way for the positive.

    Funny thing is I was going to originally be a teacher and was aptly bound to the idea for quite some time. Circumstances change though and my small job brought on a tendency to help, truly benefit others, and I turned the corner towards counseling.

    Now my decisions changing have me at a precipice of decisions, decisions, and more decisions, do I want to be a mental health provider, marriage counselor, suicide prevention agent, the list is nearly limitless but wait…can I handle this?

    Am I up to the challenge though, am I capable to be unbiased and come with a open mind and open heart to everybody’s circumstances and situations?

    I ponder on this thought and can’t wait to start my Masters.

    C’est La Vie

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

    ‘KNOW THYSELF’

  • Day Two Hundred, July 18th, 2024

    Hi-ho and hello.

    ENJOI!!!

    Have you ever had such a deep resonating fatigue leaving you like the undead?

    That’s what this most recent bout of bullshit has been, that and some insane neuropathy. Feeling of lit matches set just beneath the skin, cold brushes of thick liquid, neither of these sensations are ‘real’ when it’s the nerve damage. Like now, while I write, it feels like someone is peeling back the skin of my knuckles of my left hand with a very clean and cold scalpel.

    It’s past midnight and it’s now that I’m up. It’s now that I’m fully up to it. I’m infuriated knowing that I need to be ready for tomorrow, that tomorrow will be a heavy day with loads to do, but I’m up now. How to knock me out…how to fall asleep? How?

    It’s day 200 and I’m so off my game it’s a laughable attempt. But then again, it’s ummer break. Not necessarily for me, but for both my wife and son, school is halted for the next remaining month and a couple weeks. So the 80/20 need has shifted to a 40/60 type of need

    Not complaining though, as I know the time I have to build what we have is limited and slim, so I’ll take the opportunity to build what’s been a 13 year effort to something grand. If it will be so it’ll be.

    But hey I am gonna drop as much art as I can so I hope you enjoy the gallery.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning good night. I thank you for your support and coming back again and again. I pray that your night is gentle and your day to come is beautiful and forever peaceful. Thank you for being awesome.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day One Hundred & Seventy-Eight, June 26th, 2024

    Hi-ho and hello

    Whooo, what a change in life but if you were to hear of what it is, you’d have to ask, why? What happened, what changed? And why?

    Do you want to know?

    Really want to know?

    Alright, it is something that I’m somewhat ashamed of, something that to an extent, I am still embarrassed with but you can only make the changes. It’s making choices to make whether you make the choice or not that’s on you right? So finally I made a conscious effort and decision to communicate with my boys, my son’s; the ones in Grand Junction.

    Long story short as a very young person I had a child out of wedlock. I was about 19 having him with a woman who was, I think 31, when she gave birth to him. And we had lived together for a little while to which I ended removing myself after seeing certain things and falling in love with who I’m with now. Lo and behold three days after my wife and I get married I find out that a second son was born. My wife and I had made an attempt or two to get to Grand junction more than a few times and see one of the boys but it became costly and my health ended up taking a turn. I stopped talking to them or trying to talk to them and trying to build a relationship. I completely stopped like an a****** and I know that. So this is another reason why I did the Five Pillars and went through discovering what are the things that I hold dear and one of the biggest things is being a husband and a father. That said, I want to make sure that I at least try to be involved with them.

    So here I am late again due to writing letters and focusing on other things, like heavy letters to the both of them together and separately.

    So I’m signing out and I hope you well.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for the support and the continued time and again that you come back. May your day be gracious and the night a cradling envelope of love and serenity.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Fifty-Three, February 22nd, 2024

    Hi-ho and hello

    Work and school makes me a dull one apparently.

    I’ve been overwhelmed exhausted and trying to suss up my expectations and the sole reality of what is and isnt.

    Late day, late post.

    C’est la vie

    Good morning and Goodnight, good night and good morning.

    Nosce Te Ipsum

  • Day Twenty-Seven, January 27th, 2024

    Hello good morning good night, I apologize I’m a little late on this one because I got tired and honestly I let my worry really really take the best of me.

    As I’ve stated in prior posts, MS is a tricky little mind f***. I’ve taken the Ocrevus and am finished with my first infusion and at first there were curious worries, then elation, with a coming regret and then a composing of bitter contentment.

    At first I took to MSabove asked, around red people’s fears people’s horror stories and the likes, and then I let it really really fester and really really sink into being more than petrified. Mitigate the actual appropriate ways to find information. So I took to using my mind as scientifically as possible which is not like me but, I am proud of myself, however the news that I found was more than daunting, try absolutely terrifying. So spinal tap, news, and a matter of when this will really, really be a prospect. This is why, because if PML is what’s going on then I’ve got two years and that’s if it’s a possible good two years or my body will completely just shut down and throw me to the wolves.

    So from talking to nurse doctor another nurse my family who’s also a married of nurses and my very good friend whose daughters are also nurses or doctors depending on which one we’re talking about I’m being told to be my own advocate not only be my own advocate but be aggressive let them know you don’t want to take care of me then I’m going to find out if the answer is the only way I can and if that’s the case then I’ll have the right to kind of push it in their face. Meaning if need, be file a lawsuit but that’s another thing, doctors don’t aim for that s***, they’re not trying to be an adverse reaction for answers and finding answers. They have a bunch of red tape they themselves have to follow through and with my job I’m beginning to understand that more and more. It is just a business nowadays, the U.S. health system l,b that is, doesn’t care about the patient, at least I know as a receptionist for the company I work for having to do with health issues I get to care about the patient. However being the shoulder and sometimes, coming off as the guy who makes it come off like I’m cutting tape when I’m not, because I’m not licensed. But I’ve noticed the more candor and honesty you bring to every patient as long as you make sure to listen to them, they’re more than happy for anything that can be done because until that moment they didn’t feel like they were being heard. Anyhow I’m realizing being the patient dealing with circumstances that are somewhat parallel to issues I’ve been dealing with as the agent and not the patient it’s sad to know that I’ve genuinely have to be my own advocate and aggressively so.

    Also to those who do read and keep up with my daily drops or really anything that I post I do apologize for a late one today I’ve been somewhat in my own head a bit worried and trying hard not Spanish but at the same time trying to, I guess we saw myself to a point where I can think logically, and acts appropriately to make sure I can get things done I’d rather know that I have two years left then find out a year and a half that I’ve got months if that’s the case then we’re going to make this the best damn blog no one to freaking anybody that we meet and I will do everything I can to pour my heart out and be as real and raw as I can so everybody else can get in front of it for themselves and for the future so that is what it is right like that’s why we do what we do that’s why we write we want to communicate and personally yeah I would like to feel that I’m seeing your likes and your follows definitely help and I feel the support and I apologize if I’m not going and liking your pages more often I will definitely make an effort to do so and I apologize that there is very little punctuation, sometimes when you do the voice to text you got to make sure you do that and today I’m not going to cuz I want to make sure I drop this so I can make sure the day 28th drop is hopefully going to be seen by midnight if not 1:00 in the morning mountain time that is.

    Also the Latin phrase that I close with everyday is in layman’s terms “know thyself“.

    So every time I close out I am definitely reaching out to anybody and anyone to remember that it is on us to know who we are to know what we are and to know how we react with anything that we are facing let’s shine some light on the world let’s shine some light on one another and let’s shine some light for one another.

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. May you all have a beautiful night a beautiful day and I will see you all soon hopefully I will have an update on the spinal tap blood work and regardless of HIPAA I’m going to be as honest and forthcoming as I can be I hope it’s not too much I am what I am and I’m realizing more and more specially with what I’m finding more data proven details, his may be all I’ve got.

    Nosce Te Ipsum