Hi-ho and hello
Reasons. Or an explanation.
MS or Multiple Sclerosis is a disease that eats away at the protective sheath around the nerves and nerve endings. The immune system eats away at the protective covering of nerves.
In MS, resulting nerve damage disrupts communication between the brain and the body.
Multiple sclerosis causes many different symptoms, but for me the ones include pain, fatigue, and impaired coordination. The symptoms, severity, and duration can vary from person to person. Some people may be symptom free most of their lives, while others can have severe chronic symptoms that never go away.
Now, What they don’t tell you is that it also depends on where the lesions are. Guess where most of mine are?! My brain. My frogging brain!
So I sit with a collection of doubts, I sit with this disparate solvent that I call luck of the draw and embrace the tumultuous blend of what is.
But it’s why I’ve been gone for the duration of the last three months. There’s a multitude of reasons but the biggest being something triggered a fear in me, something trickled down my spine and tingled enough to within an urgency that I silenced myself and watched pieces get taken away. Then I noticed these were pieces I needed, pieces I wanted still and use now. But instead of writing my woes and whittling a memory engrained. I silenced myself like Montage muffled his mind, I shut off the engine entirely and just now am starting to regain a kindling that seems resurrecting enough. I guess we’ll see.
I will tell you this, I dealt with fears that I created myself, errors that were uneeded and let them manifest in their own dark pool of grief and woe and I suffered from that but until now realized I need to let it go. Luckily life is longer than expected and these things should be relieved easily and let go of easier than pie. Whatever that means. I’m out.
C’est La Vie
NOSCE TE IPSUM
‘Know Thyself’
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