Do you ever question your selfishness or selflessness? Do you ever stand observing, living, moving through the motions because well you’re used to it but then find yourself questioning that as well?
I woke up this morning and went to work did the usual did my DQ read my projects read my essays everything that’s needed definitely more than I had intended but I think I have enough time and if I do things right I’ll be able to get it done early. That’s of course hopeful thinking as I’m lazy and I know this.
But I also get easily excited, and being able to translate said excitement into what I’m writing about with scientific studies, discoveries, and prospects afterward… It’s easy to write. It’s easy to plan, it’s easy to write, it’s easy to script. Haha I forget it’s a son of a b**** when it comes to f****** citing though and that I will be rather frank with, I get it and I totally respect the citing, and the needing of it However we’ve all seen those memes or at least I assume, forgive me, we totally know and we’ve got the confidence but god forbid we’re going to wait till the last minute right?
At least I know I do and I’ll take accountability to that even if I had my professor Dr Green straight face to face I would admit look I’m going to do this last minute and then I’m going to do the best I can because well …Memento Mori.
But that’s the truth of everything that has been and was much as I can truly focus on daily with moving forward. No that sentence makes any sense to you awesome it barely makes any sense to me but I’m the one who said it so I’m just going to ride with it. So the thing is with Memento Mori I’m realizing one you take every day as the last day of what you have not any hey I’m going to do whatever the f*** I want kind of living but I’m going to make sure that every step I make has worth every action I have has that worth and everything I say has a weight or a point for it. Well the thing is I lose focus and I get passionate and I like talking. I hate my f****** job, but when it comes to talking to someone especially family, john, my wife, there’s a joy it’s your joy to communicating with someone about life..
C’est La vie
sorry this is late I lost track of time been falling asleep doing my work…my bad
Good night and may you have a sweet good morning, to a sweet good morning may you have a sweet and darling good night.
Nosce Te Ipsum
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