So…I keep losing weight and I’m noticing I’m getting weaker.
To add to that, one of the reasons I’m off with my daily posts is the second infusion happened, but I feel that losing almost 30 lbs within a month and not trying to is maybe something that is needing attention…I don’t know. And I’m wishing I did but to that, I’m not going to panic until I have to, I’ll just enjoy being able to put on any jeans I have. 😁
One of the great things about the five pillars is a building of resilience through finding oneself, however, if one takes the time to go through figuring out what means the most to you in figuring out those pillars. One through five, thoroughly, you’ll find an aspect of yourself awake. That something that laid dormant for so long and now it starts to stir. Silently at first, it stirs until your bones rattle within and the heart beating in the cage of its home sounds like castanets.
It takes time. All of it takes time, and it takes patience, and a fundamental wanting to become the best of yourself, ourselves, that we can become.
Give your health the time of day, give your heart the day of time with those you love, find the art in life that stills you, be cognizant of yourself and emotion and how you carry it through the days, everyday, because it may just be your last.
To which, keep in mind ‘Memento mori‘ or ‘Remember that you mustdie’. It is an inevitable constant that none of us can defeat, and I’d like to carry my brightest day each day I live.
It’s staying in line with being something better than what I was yesterday that has me going forward each day til there is nothing left to do.
C’est La Vie
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I’ve been a tad fixated on Carl Jung’s idea of Happiness and how having a decent grasp on the five pillars aid in finding happiness at a whim and with less than a glance. This is where I find myself so far. Mind you this is after about a bout of four weeks and many self introspections still to go.
Pillar One: Good Physical and Mental health.
On a personal level and standard, I think I’m doing okay on this pillar. I maintain my hydration. I work out little and walk often, I hope that’s enough when it comes to making sure I’m taking care of my health, and luckily to itI have a decent relationship with my doctors, and an okay bearing on my disease. I cook most of our meals, and try to limit my red meats. But that’s not to say when we get fast food I don’t completely lose my inhibitions, devouring what’s on my plate like a ravenous neanderthal, masticating away my humanity while I gulp greased meats and taters. I can’t help but giggle at the image. Eyes nearly bulging from my face, wide, and glistening, food being shoveled into my maw like a cartooned jackass. Heehaw. Hahahahaha
Whoa now. Sorry. Food, love to hate it and eat to love it. 🥴🤗🥴
PillarTwo: Good Personal And Intimate Relationships
This one is a queer objective as the friend I have takes me away from my wife and she tends to feel distanced from me when I take the time to invest in my relationships outside of my home. Bringing an understanding to doing what I can, dealing with this with a tentative step, slowly.
Pillar Three: The Faculty For Perceiving Beauty In Art And Nature
This doesn’t mean make art. It doesn’t mean ‘go and buy it’. It means taking the time to invest in being present and cognizant to the whole of life with being able to perceive outside of oneself. It means to being able in perceiving away from the ego to find the joyous beauty to the contrasts that make life whole and something more than us, this is the objective.
And I hope and feel that I have a good balance of this in understanding and learning from it.
Pillar Four: Reasonable Standards Of Living And Satisfactory Work
For this…I stand scratching at my scalp…I have the things that I enjoy, I have the means to create what is wanted and the assets available to use if wanted.
I have a roof over my head, bed(cot) to sleep on, and a to family that I tend to daily if not hourly, likely more.
I work for myself. And that’s outside of what I do on a daily. The thing is my daily, is my job and is my life, which is taking care of my son, the nonverbal child who has autism and his momma. The thing I’ve come to find is that he’s growing, he’s getting bigger, curious, and to my dismay, lonely. On his Talker I’m known as Dad/Friend.
I gladly wear that crown of Dad/Friend for my son if it helps him find himself and the things he likes. Teasing his dad/friend is a big one for him lately.
It brings a significant satisfaction daily and knowing I get to be there as a pillar for him and her is a crowning achievement in my eyes.
Pillar Five: Philosophical Or Religious Outlook
Now…now this calls for a pause.
ENJOI!!!
C’est La Vie
Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. May the joys of the day and Bliss of the night be graceful and forever peaceful.
Hello everyone and to piggy back off of what was somewhat discussed for day 146, pillars one in Pillars two, were both a project that I had thought, once I had an outline and a plan, itd be simple, swift and an easy catch.
I was so, so absolutely arrogant about the time it takes to truly understand what helps oneself. So for pillar one I found that I appreciate my mental health. I love sharing my music I love communicating, even if I’m talking to a wall there’s something about being able to share and hear the ideas of others that share a parallel to a like-mindedness and I’m finding more and more I need to make an effort to find that. Meaning pillar two needs to grow. But how do you grow but also maintain a strong connection to the tether that you keep as your anchor?
Healthwise, taking care of my body outside of the mental health, is something I am, I guess, a little loose with. I don’t count my macros, anybody who does power to them, I rarely check my weight maybe once twice a month, I drink a lot of water and I try to make sure I have at least one source of protein that isn’t a fit crunch bar or protein bar. But that goes without saying that there’s the fast food, the engorging on sweets when I am essentially on my period, I love the f*** out of some chocolate when I’m emotional let’s be real who doesn’t. So figuring that out has been fun, troubling, a bit curious to find some things out and I’m excited to tackle yhe next three. But I still am trying to figure out how to build up stronger ties with friends and family when there’s one source that I need to make sure is stronger than anything else?
Everything takes time, time takes everything.
So with the stoicism in mind, and the knowledge of Memento Mori, live it up. Live it the best you can and understand those pillars so finding happiness comes at a whim, comes at a blink.
C’est La Vie
Good night and good morning, Good morning and good night. Thank you for your support, thank you for the likes, thank you for coming time and again. I do wish that your day is gentle, humbling, and graceful.
As a 34 year old, I’m at the pivotal place within that I feel is in need and far past due for a resetting or at the least a re-evaluating of where my self is, and where I am mentally. What steps are needed to help the progression in myself.
And I kind of laugh at that, the progression that is, because I am progressing further with the multiple sclerosis a more ominously obvious sense of progression.
Maybe that’s just ghoulish humor, but so it goes.
But, then I think of Carl Jung, and the pillars that I’m trying to grasp for myself to better whatever steps and motion I take to doing from here and out.
Pillar one, though I feel I’ve gathered a good grasp of what pillar one means and making sure I am aware and well balanced with a cognizant tether and knowing what my body needs and that of health. So I do take care of my body, I stay hydrated, I eat a good amount of protein and though there are some areas within health, body, and mind that needs some tending I feel I’m getting a good grasp. I’ve got myself a therapist, I’ve got myself a new line of medication and vitamins to help with the MS, and for the first time in a long while, I am starting to see a positive outcome. Now when coming a second pillar though, that has a heavy hand and a sad hand.
ENJOI!!!
My friends are limited, they are certainly a small group if not a solo group, and though I’m not a lone wolf all the time, given my friend is an 85 year old man, I try not to bother him. I’m told it’s okay, “call whenever you want“, but at the same time I’m also coming to this understanding that less is more. And there is something gracious about that for me. On a personal level it’s something that I’m cherishing more and more, I don’t know maybe it’s feeling isolated and alone more and more that has me feeling spirited that way and seeing it in that type of light, but it is what it is and I’d rather wake up with a smile and a decent outlook then scowling at the Sun and Moon everyday.
C’est La Vie
Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. Thank you readers and supporters. Thank you and may the night and coming day be forever graced with joy and bliss.
I’d like to wish a happy earth day to all, may we learn ways to rectify what we’ve drained from our home.
Good afternoon, or whatever time it is wherever it is that you find yourself. Pretty sure I’ve got over fatalism a time or two at least in respects to just life in the way things delve into well, this. Two years ago this was an idea, though it was grandiose and obviously ill planned, I kept with it and continued with it. Thankfully I have some continuing readers and supportive bloggers and others like-minded that come back to like and I appreciate it. I am so appreciative of any of the support that I have acquired since I started this, and sadly there has been a friend or two that have been missed, or forgotten, however I strive on and I will continue to do this.
I also had never planned on becoming an amateur editor for Mr. John Walker, and that alone not regarding what I’m doing here is a treasure if not so much more than that. I am more than grateful for everything that I’ve been able to acquire since I truly started doing the things I want.
And this isn’t some nihilistic attitude. It more or less has aligned into following the practices of the Five Pillars for happiness in line with what I’ve perceived from Carl Jung.
We have an insurmountable range of choices every single day, and I have made sure that every day and on and on, I continue to strive for not only lights, being good, but striving and doing the things that I have always wanted to do. And as a reader you may think that means jumping off the empire State building with a parachute, flying an airplane, hunting sasquatch, meeting famous people, but it isn’t. Don’t get me wrong those things would be nice, but since I was a kid I wanted to be a dad, to be a husband, a good cook, writer, artist, and singer. With the addition of any other things that contributed to what I just listed that I found that tickled my heart and brought me to life. In my past I’ve made some decisions that still have me kicking myself for being so damn foolish and impulsive, but again, we can choose to learn from these deliberations, or continue to make the same decisions that have brought us problems again and again. I choose to make a choice that brings change, light, and betterment. I just need to get the gumption to say no with confidence in my inflections.
And that’s why I am writing today and also with the intention of kind of leaning into the first pillar for that of the mental space that we need to make sure we coax into accepting our changes for ourselves. As a husband, and dealing with the 80% leave her the f*** alone and 20% be there whenneeded, I try diligently to walk with my shoulders strong, head high, not letting the dichotomy dichotomy of the household relationship for both my wife and I to be cordial.
I believe the biggest importance of maintaining wellness whether it’s in body or mind takes on a calling for the perception of how we let the world around us affect us. I can choose to be miserable, I can choose to be anguish, or like many of us, honestly likely most of us, it seems that we know we can choose to be happy for the loves that we have, the people that keep us warm, and the love we hold dear. It’s a choice, and I strive to aim towards a more genial and positive outlook.
So for one it is a meaningful expose for that of a person aiming to do right with every effort leading towards detriment. It’s an egregious telling of choice and consciousness in our efforts. Are we always so sure what we’re doing is the best for everyone? Or is it just the things quietly and subconsciously wanted? Is it the white lie we tell ourselves doing this into thinking happiness is right around the corner? I want to journey through that investigation, what created the chaos that the detective Rachel is trying to pull from joel, what is the box in its entirety, and if he’s admitting about the death of his own brother but denying that any of the three that are known to be dead are solely due to his choosing and his action, what are the details? And this is something that I would love to eventually encapsulate the titled site name Dream Dark Stories.
On a weekly basis, likely Sunday night/Monday morning, there will be a new part to Forget-Me-Naught. And though I have some ideas about the detective and having her own story outside of what we’re reading in Forget-Me-Naught, any other additional story that isn’t to do with Forget-Me-Naught, is going to drop sporadically. As for now I’m still trying to build up a bit of a base and some more supporters but still leading with the intention of wrapping up a small anthology collection of whatever it is I’ve provided within the last year.
And with that I bid adieu. May your night, morning, day be forever grace with light and wonder.
C’est La Vie
Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I truly would like to take a moment and thank every single person that has come to read, has come to take a gander even if for a minute, I am grateful and honored to know that I’m at least doing something enough that it calls to someone. And I thank you for that I do wish you a blessed day, or night.
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