Hi-ho and hello.
My house sits on the far side of a very busy and bustling road that could and may have been almost main street of our part of the city. And even at 2:00 in the morning, the silence is fleeting. And I don’t sleep, not because I’m tired, not because I’m not tired, but because I have an Alani (energy drink) running through my blood and my heart is pumping who knows how many miles a minute. But, feeling it now, my hand on my chest on my heart, it’s not all that fast actually.
What I do is I sit here and I talk into a mic, reading the words that then are portrayed on the screen. I’m writing forget-me-naught, thinking of Joel, of the detective, of how the conversation would happen. And then I think of Cormac McCarthy, Stephen King’s On Writing…, Vonnegut, and of course Gaiman, and the favorite Bradbury. And then I push them as far away as I can, not because I don’t love their work, not because I wouldn’t mind their opinion, because I really really would, because I need to find faith in myself. I need to start trusting myself. And knowing whatever I do create and bring to this source, that I’m bringing it. With an amount of gusto that at least shares genuine aspects to who and what I truly am. I don’t think it’s fair for any of us to find faith in people and learn of examples that are led by those, to then find out that they were monsters and continuing to be monsters, knowing they were monsters.
I don’t know, maybe the statement is egregious but I’d rather find faith in someone who can be accountable for themselves and the actions that they do, regardless of anything outside of themselves. But then like Seneca and Aurelius I think of a hodgepodge quote, stating that if ourselves are offended by someone and feel like toting that blame in that anger of theirs or of them to others before doing so search within to see why what is it in ourselves that have us affected by these characters. I’ll go through my listed quotes and try to do a posting on the direct one that I’m referencing to later on.
I don’t know there’s a lot on my mind and I still have lots to do. So with that I bid adieu.
C’est La Vie
Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. May the day and night be graceful as it is bountiful. Thank you for the support and following.
Nosce Te Ipsum
