Dream Dark Stories

Author: Matty R. B.

  • Day Two Hundred & Thirty-Nine, August 26th, 2024 and Prompt Soup #0.25

    What’s your favorite recipe?

    Hi-ho and hello.

    Would this be my favorite recipe for cookies? Since my favorite recipe for what makes festivities perfect? Is this my favorite recipe for madness? Or is this my favorite recipe of something I like something I would eat?

    If this is food, we’re talking about green chili.

    1 lb roasted and peeled green chili/Hatch/Anaheim (always remember to remove stems, if you want to remove seeds by all means but that’s not what chili is if you’re going to do that)

    6-7 roma tomatoes (roast)

    Half of one yellow onion (roast)

    3 cloves of garlic (peel, then roast)

    Now put chili, tomato, onion, and garlic into a food processor and blend. Add one to two tablespoons of salt, add onion powder for flavor

    3 tbsp Salt

    1 tbsp Onion powder

    Next pull out 2 lb of pork, trim off fat, slice into one to two inch square chunks.

    Grab a large pot, put about four tablespoons of olive oil, play this one by I depending on your quantity of pork you’ll need a little bit more oil.

    Once oil is heated put pork on mix until you have a good carameling and all the pieces are showing a little bit of char.

    You will now want to apply quickly and slowly while also stirring a quarter of a cup of flour (can be corn flour) into the flour.

    Add 2 cups of water 

    Add a 16 oz of chunky tomato 

    Stir and let simmer for 45 minutes.

    Voila.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. May your day be beautiful and your night be blissful. I thank you for your support. Thank you for being awesome and thank you for staying you.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Thirty-Eight, August 25th, 2024 and Prompt Soup #0.24

    What TV shows did you watch as a kid?

    Hi-ho and hello.

    Personally I’m actually a big fan of this prompt for the simple fact that I can’t think of any TV show that I religiously watched growing up. There were the few like House. But during my growing up when I was in high school. I remember wanting to watch a few seasons of CSI the OG one that was a great series. But honestly I didn’t really get into watching anything until I was an older person.

    And honestly just scratching the very base of my brain, and thinking of TV shows growing up, there was Twilight Zone and that used to play early morning episodes in the A.M. but that wasn’t something that was religious that was just something that if I happen to wake up early enough I had the prospects of seeing it and given with my knowing how I knew I would take care of things last minute growing up I probably watched the whole episode and then scrounge to get myself dressed for school.

    Then again I left the phone for a minute mind you, and thought about it and there were shows like Mannix, unsolved mysteries, or Ripley’s Believe it or not, X-Files those are things I remember growing up. ER that’s another show I remember growing out remember somehow watching and for reasons unknown being into it and I don’t know why. I like the guy though that was from Seven that was on there I think he was a surgeon and Don Cheadle his character was f****** great. Oh and I guess I had a thing for the guy named Luca on ER as that was the name I always wanted my first son to have. It was Luca. And Daria, Aeon Flux, Beavis and Butthead, The Transformers, The Hobbit. That was something that I watched religiously growing up on VHS I f****** loved The Hobbit.

    And I think that’s it. At least the ones I remember that I want to remember and know there are other crime series growing up stuff that was on syndication that my grandparents would watch where I was the one that staying the night. But for some reason I always remember unsolved with mysteries Robert stack and that f****** theme song horrible when you’re 5 years old trying to find some sleep that song gives nightmares nowadays it loves me to sleep but then whooo. Hahaha.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. May your day be beautiful and your night be amazing, thank you for being you and thank you for saying awesome.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Thirty-Seven, August 24th, 2024 and Prompt Soup #0.23

    What’s your favorite time of day?

    It is the morning, right before everybody else starts buzzing to being awake and the dogs start barking their brains out. It’s right before the third cup of coffee, right after the cartoon specials on MeTV.

    It’s right after my first poem, the second doodle, after going through my planner erasing things, scratching things out, and making another plan to fit another missed day.

    But then there’s the night, and for me it’s far from over the rest of the day so with that the night is exceedingly my favorite as it’s cooler everything slowing down and music sounds better in the dark.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I think you for your patience and apologize for any repeated prompts or really anything. I hope your day is well and your night better than the one before. Stay safe stay awesome and I’ll see you tomorrow.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Thirty-Six, August 23rd, 2024 and Prompt Soup #0.22

    What motivates you?

    Hi-ho and hello.

    It’s the fire beneath my ass. Or maybe it’s the knowing my health has a ticking time bomb,  damn, scratch that, it’s a wanting and a knowing that if I stop, I fail.

    Yeah, that’s what it is, it’s knowing that if I stop, I fail as the writer I want to be and the writer I am.

    Dancing dandelion, tufts soar amidst the boy dancing with the wind and swaying with the trees.

    But what motivates me is my child, my being, the fact that I get to live, and the grace that I still have the benefit of having my mind and having the knowledge to use that mind and share whether it’s a knowledge or just a feeling, I get to share that and I hope that those who read know that I never am coming with malice I simply am sharing my opinion. And maybe it’s like the  known adage ‘everybody’s got an opinion and like an a****** they all stink.’ but you know what so is life and like life we have those moments of smelling like s*** and moments of smell like roses so take what you get and you make lemonade why not. You have One Life to Live. Why not make lemonade with the tools we have? Why not make something delicious and beautiful?

    I may not be beautiful what I say may not be beautiful but I hope the poetry hit somewhere and I hope something that I say affects your heart in a positive way and with that…

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. May your day be beauty, your night be gorgeous. And may your life be wondrous. Thank you for being you and thank you for staying awesome.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Thirty-Five, August 22nd, 2024 and Prompt Soup #0.21

    Where did your name come from?

    Hi-ho and hello.

    ENJOI!!!

    I was born under a waxing moon, nope, scratch that, I was born at 4:11 in the afternoon, but on the 3rd of August, yes the moon was in it’s waxing gibbous phase.

    I was a bastard child as a matter of fact. Two foolish young spirited people happened to get together and aided and creating me.

    As to the name, it was originally supposed to be Nicole or Sierra. Or Sierra Nicole but unbeknownst to my mother I came out a boy and the name was decidedly Matthew Ryan. Given her Christian background I’m assuming that’s where it came from. And as Matthew means ‘a gift from God’, and Ryan means ‘Little Prince’, it managed to stick. The last name on the other hand has been a few different ones. Primarily bird after getting adopted, but to myself I choose Vega.

    That’s all for today. I wanted to cover a prompt I meant to answer days ago.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for the support shown and being awesome and staying you. Thank you.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Thirty-Four, August 21st, 2024 and Prompt Soup #0.20

    What brings you peace?

    Hi-ho and hello.

    Peace. What brings peace?

    Is it odd that I feel this question to be a loaded one?

    What is peace?

    Going to Google, one would find a slew of many ideas to what Peace is.

    Peace can have many meanings, including: Tranquility, Security, Freedom, Acceptance, & Relationships. There are many ways to find peace.

    This is something that I take with a patient and pensive heart as finding peace takes time and a finding of one’s self.

    I used to take to searching the field of philosophy in hopes that these concepts would bring peace but no, I lament with a disatisfaction to philosophy as it seems unhinged and to fit the ego of the philosopher. This thinking brought the discovery of Carl Jung to me whose theory grasps hold of four functions:  Thinking, Feeling, Sensation, and Intuition. His belief is that the whole of each of our experiences should be respected instead of disavowed, and that those four functions are the means of control that help us view and act in the world.

    So I took to figuring myself out, I went through the Five Pillars.

    • Good physical and mental health.
    • Good personal and intimate relationships.
    • Seeing beauty in art and nature.
    • A reasonable standard of living and satisfactory work.
    • A philosophical or religious outlook that fosters resilience.

    Peace didn’t find me, or I didn’t find Peace after this. I was disheveled, as a matter of fact, realizing that I’m not happy, I became resentful to certain aspects due to waking change, wanting to better myself, and a deep worry that I was and am alone regardless of my marriage.

    Does that sound like peace?

    No!

    But I am on gaining peace, so I continue here, I continue my school work and essays, I paint, sketch, and make sure to create as much as I can. It brings a contentment to my heart and a security in knowing that I’m working and putting effort to the energy I have. This is a form of Peace and I’ll take it, wouldn’t you?

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for the support shown and thank you for being you and staying awesome. Thank you.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Thirty-Three, August 20th, 2024 and Prompt Soup #0.19

    How do you plan your goals?

    Hi-ho and hello

    Now this question depends on a myriad of situations. If it’s something long-term like a five-year, three-year, one-year stint till completion or nearing the end of a goal it’s likely in my passion planner and on my calendar. If it’s something within the week, it’s usually posted on a sticky note, maybe jotted down onto the fridge.

    Short-term goals usually end up just internal, it’s a set plan that I know I need to make moves within the day to make sure that I can either do it or have it. I found that most plans though outside of a week take considerable planning and learning. School is my favorite though when it comes to planning. I’m actually nearing the end of my B.A. and I cannot wait to go get my M.A.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. May your nights be epic, May the day be joyous and may life treat you well. Thank you for showing your support and staying awesome and staying you.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Thirty-Two, August 19th, 2024 and Prompt Soup #0.18

    Tell us about the last thing you got excited about.

    Hi-ho and hello.

    I need to be honest here. The matter of fact is that I ashamedly hyped a day for no reason other than it was my day.

    My birthday happened to be the last thing I got excited for. And why you may ask. It was for nothing other than I had lived longer than Jesus.

    No, I’m not being blasphemous, I’m being rather straight forward. I like fact and the fact is that there was a man named Jesus that died on a cross at age 33, mind you, this was more than 2000 years ago, but still.

    Now, given my health and some worry that I’ve been dealt a shit hand, I had honestly thought I wouldn’t make it past age 33. With the loss of over ten family members in the last couple years, including my brother who passed due to a brain aneurysm, I hadn’t thought I’d make it much further. He died at age 33 and given the six month difference from his age to mine, my fingers were crossed.

    So, with that explanation, I was more than elated that my birthday was getting closer and closer, and finally it came and I am now an additionally older. Thank the gods!

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. May your day be joyous, and the night be blissful. I thank you for your support and I thank you for being awesome and being you.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Thirty-One, August 18th, 2024 and Prompt Soup #0.17

    What are your top ten favorite movies?

    I’m a big fan of film, I love the cinema and happen to find myself at the theatre more than you’d think. To my dismay most of the movies are family or animated (still family). But it doesn’t mean I haven’t curated my own Pop’s List.

    1.)

    Directed by: Danny Boyle, Featuring: Cillian Murphy, Michelle Yeoh, Chris Evans, Rose Byrne, Cliff Curtis, Hiroyuki Sanada, Benedict Wong, and Mark Strong

    2.)

    Directed by: Duncan Jones, Featuring: Sam Rockwell, Kevin Spacey, and Dominique McElligott

    3.)

    Directed by: Chris Eyre Featuring: Adam Beach, Evan Adams, Irene Bedard, Gary Farmer, and Tattoo Cardinal

    4.)

    Directed by: Darren Aranofsky Featuring: Hugh Jackman , Rachel Weiss, and Ellen Burstyn

    5.)

    Directed by: Alfred Hitchcock Featuring: James Stewart, Grace Kelly, and Raymond Burr

    6.)

    Directed by: Nicolas Roeg Featuring: Donald Sutherland and Julie Christie

    7.)

    Directed by: Robert Benigni Featuring: Robert Benigni, Nicoletta Braschi, and Giorgio Cantarini

    8.)

    Directed by: Jieho Lee Featuring: Brendan Fraser, Forrest Whitaker, Kevin Bacon, Sarah Michelle Gellar, Emile Hirsch, Andy Garcia, Clark Gregg, Julie Delpy, Kelly Hu, Evan Parke, and Jon Bernthal

    9.)

    Directed by: Danny Boyle Featuring: Cillian Murphy, Megan Burns, Brendan Gleason, Naomi Harris, and Christopher Eccleston

    10.)

    Directed by: Ron Clements, John Musker, Burney Martinson, and David Michener Featuring: Val Bettin, Vincent Price, Susanne Pollatschek, and Barrie Ingham

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. Thank you for coming to my site and saying hello. May your night be wondrous and your day be blissful. Thank you for being you.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Thirty, August 17th, 2024

    Hi-ho and hello.

    ENJOI!!!

    I hope some Elvis Costello & the Attractions will put a little wiggle into your heart today.

    I felt that it would be a good day for music and a good day to dance.

    Or maybe you’re down for a little grooving, something that has you wanting another to dance with.

    Maybe some Leon Bridges crooning the heart and soul.

    Doesn’t it have you wanting to move a little? I know it does for me.

    Blur

    Or we can do this fast and get some brain trauma, don’t know about you, but it’s still a kicking  track.

    This is my mind today, it’s just another track from my playlists of many off to another track, more thought, and another track and thought, repeat, pause, repeat.

    How many?

    Like the playlists and songs I share, it’s a random selection of favorites and times that tickle and excite my heart and mind. It’s a tumultuous combination of lyrical perfections splendidly selected to fit the messed within my head like dynamite ready to ignite for the flame of what’s burning inside.

    Breathe.

    This is my day like this page you’re peering into. This is my brain and the multitude of things that are layered upon themselves within. Hello and goodbye. Til tomorrow friend.

    ENJOI!!!

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night.

    I thank you for the support you show and I pray that your night is blissful and your day is glorious. Thank you for being you, and thank you for coming here.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Twenty-Nine, August 16th, 2024

    Hi-ho and hello.

    ENJOI!!!

    …it’s evening, the late summer cicadas sing and chitter with the crickets. The boy plays.

    The streets are loud tonight and the mosquitos won’t stop sucking at the arms and legs.

    The sensations of summer heat still linger heavy and yet there’s a smell of winter in the wind.

    The boy plays into the night, singing indecipherable tongues, moving cables, moving cords. The boy plays and plays. 

    The crickets chirp, the cicada sing, the hollows silence between the pauses leave a scent of coming change, a sound of perpetual motion.

    The boy plays through summer heat, with autumn showers, and revels with the winter winds. He sniffs at the air, senses change, and shouts to the sky. The boy plays.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for the support shown and coming time and again. Thank you.

    May your night be delicately beautiful and the day joyous and splendid. Thank you for being you and staying awesome.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Prompt Soup #0.16

    What do you enjoy most about writing?

    I love all of it. I love the definitions behind the words. I love the soliloquies, the metaphors, the iambic pentameters, I love poetry, I love the words and the impact each one can make with the right delicate touch. I love how you can make someone swoon, love, hate, fear, and sweat. All with the simple lovely availability of 26 characters. Truly when you think about it how f****** amazing is that? To have a plethora of tools at your hand on your f****** phone, you can write a sonnet, you can write prose, you can do an essay, you can do whatever the f*** you want and with whatever words you want because guess what, regardless of the argument Free Will is the thing. So yeah I love writing, I love being able to put down my pen to paper and leak out all of the blood that I feel has been strained from me. I love being able to put down what I’m fretting for without opening up my mouth and causing pain to those around me. I love being able to share my thoughts and my deepest secrets here. And the beauty of it is that I have the freedom to be able to use these words and talk with these words and if I choose to I can publish it. I don’t know about you, but that is flipping amazing!

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for the support and coming to my site.

    May your night be blissful and the day be glorious. Thank you for being you.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Prompt Soup #0.15

    What do you love about where you live?

    It’s the trees. Or is it the air. It may be the silence that hits the landscape during the early mornings, dew hangs low, fog straps tightly to tires and the asphalt, and the town breathes in unison.

    This is Pueblo, CO. And though we’ve got our speed demons, our drag racers, our unhoused, and the fireworks that seem endless at times, there’s an energy of familia here.

    There is a quiet calming that seems to caress the roads here, we’re all like busy bees in our niches and alcoves of the town but we’re safe and there’s an effortlessness to being free in this here. The artists paint the walls, the troubadours sing to the moon, and we the people embrace one another to help each other.

    We’re a city filled with Mom & pop spots from Northern to the Blvd, to Eagle ridge, and Union. We support them and boost the morale of one another to keep us going. We may not all agree but there’s a humbleness and a quaint resolve that rests in the belly of the Puebloans.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for the support shown and coming back again and again. Thank you for being you.

    May your night be blissful and the day be energetic and full.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Twenty-Eight, August 15th, 2024

    Hi-ho and hello.

    Whoa, yep, a couple hundred days and I’m still here. Still kicking and typing away, of course though, I lament with a lateness that has been crowding my space. But that’s life, right? It’s not always sugar and ease.

    I do what I can to leave no doubt that I’m still kicking and thrashing with what tools I have here. It’s likely for myself as I go on and talk to the empty space before me…but there’s an inkling that maybe you’ll read it eventually. And you ask, who is the writer talking to. Is it you? Is it the boys? Is it my son, the nonverbal boy right beside me, or is it you? The reader? Who knows? I know that I know not.

    I write aimlessly at times to help deduct that which confuses and muddies the waters for my clarity. Do you do this?

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night.

    I thank you for the showing of support and coming time and again. Thank you for being you.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Twenty-Seven, August 14th, 2024, Prompt Soup #0.14

    What positive emotion do you feel most often?

    Hi-ho and hello.

    For the most part there’s a large portion of my days that are filled with contentment. That said there’s a large assortment within that portion or life in general that has me standing slanted and scratching at my head.

    Life is a conundrum and a queer one at that. So I take in the swallows of winter wind that can be sensed in the air. There’s a brisk touch to the mornings that have an aire to it bringing thoughts of rain and slush.

    This is my morning and I stand slouched, tired, yawning, and wishing there were coffee IVs sold over the counter. I’d be strapped to one on a daily, darkened veins would decorate my body from the oils of the bean. Conundrums and confusions, say it now, I may be losing it. This is day Two Hundred & Twenty-Seven…and I’m trying not to be nervous but I can see the writing. I can sense a change…MS the bitch…shit.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night.

    I thank you for the support. I thank you for coming back and again. Thank you for being you and staying awesome.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Twenty-Six, August 13th, 2024 and Prompt Soup #0.12

    What change, big or small, would you like your blog to make in the world?

    I guess you could say I’m a tad corny, too hopeful, or ignorant. Whatever it is you choose to define my persona, let it be something joyous. And I know a lot of my language is marosse, that the direction is more drab and negative to which I don’t mean it to be.

    I like questioning life and what it is that makes us tick…even if it be me. I appreciate the analytic perspective to the human, whomever it may be. But overall, regardless of writing, I want this, all I’ve written to help someone. Whether it be one, two, or one sentence that moves someone to do something positive and to better the outcome for another…then I’m good.

    Again I know it’s corny, but it’s the truth. I think life is simple and we make it difficult because feelings and logic tend to sit in a perplexing order when it’s applicable to what fits. Like a puzzle piece finishing the horizon.

    If what I write can help someone either find a path to work, see choices made or questions asked that help retrieve their own findings than la-di-da.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for coming to my page and venturing within. May your night be splendid and the day be graceful. Thank you for being you.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Twenty-Five, August 12th 2024

    Hi-ho and hello.

    ENJOI!!!

    I do not know what’s happening in my head, though I am questioning my direction and place. Regardless of anything of what’s going on, whenever I find myself seeing more darkness than light, somehow this song ends up finding itself in my playlist. It’s not one that’s been added until recently, but every time, it still pops up. Divine interventions? I doubt it; I’m pretty sure it’s just an algorithm and the simple fact that I’m a fan of The Cinematic Orchestra.

    What is it that keeps you up at night? Is it the multitude of chores still to be done? The laundry monster in the Master? School work by the loads? Work and editing for weeks? No? Yes? Is it something else? Is it the paintings undone and the stories unwritten screaming to be let out? Do they yell inside?

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for coming to show your support and hope you well. May your night be blissful and the day gentle.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Twenty Four, August 11th, 2024

    Hi-ho and hello

    Time keeps on ticking and I’m still stuck. Trying to find a way to salvation and a freedom that seems to escape me. My home is free, the place I rest my head is not the worst, it’s something in my heart that has me unsettled and at a point of unrest that has me question the world. Depression with ADHD is a b****, it’s left the canvas empty and the poetry book withering, the planner a facade of someone losing it and instead of changing it…I write here.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I think you for your support, and I think you for continuing to come back in again. Guess I should maybe get back on my s*** I’ll see you guys in a little while.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Twenty-Three, August 10th, 2024

    Hi-ho and hello.

    I’ve been tentatively hesitant, not wanting to share all that much lately as I feel I’m spiraling.

    The days are melding together overlapping like waves of an oceans tide. My head is something similar splicing thoughts and images to compile what’s more surreal than wanted. But if it’s burning bright enough I guess you hold on to it, right?

    Ever want to not feel anything? 

    I’ve been practicing my jungian pillars, making sure I address what I’m breathing for and what it is I love. But this consistent doing and writing to myself and aiming to better who I am each day is isolating me. I love my wife but I can only watch a screen for so long before my brain wants to shut off. I want you.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and Good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for the support shown and thank you for being you and staying awesome.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Prompt Soup #0.11

    What profession do you admire most and why?

    It’s the teacher that I admire. Now, though I admire professors and those of the doctrine level that have worked under, it’s the teachers of elementary, middle, and high school levels that I admire most. The knowledge of pay, the knowing that the reward is in reflection of effort shown, and still I’ve found that there’s a beautiful tenacity within the spirits of teachers, most seem to truly love the craft and effort needed. And I can honestly say I’ve never seen a Teacher not spend half of their salary on their classrooms for the benefit of the students.

    I guess I do have a soft spot for reading and English teachers but that’s purely biased due to my major being English and the oversized library I have accumulated in my own home.

    It’s teachers though, and they should be admired for so many reasons, the biggest though, it’s the fact that without teachers we’d be the empty shells of what we are. They drive our curiosity and instill a wanting to know and with that knowledge comes the ability to change and help others. It’s teachers of any kind that instill that and I admire the wanting to teach knowledge and educate those who are willing to take the time to listen. 

    Teachers are awesome!!!

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for coming to the site and showing support. Thank you for being

    you and staying awesome.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Twenty-Two, August 9th, 2024

    Hi-ho and hello.

    Like Sophocles I try to come with the riddles that flummox my spirits. This said, sorry for the incoherent riddling that I find myself transfixed by. Life is a cumbersome and confusing pulse that seems to pump and flow when it needs…or wants.

    I say this because I am tired. I am tired of the entrapment of conversation that was initially intended to immediately confuse. Or I find myself stupified with the questioning of what is known.

    And I wonder does she feel trapped. And then she makes comments about being complacent, comments like: “we’ve been together for this long”or “we’re already here”.

    I don’t think she wants it, I think, to be honest, that there’s the knowledge and knowing of affordability or lack there of that makes it where there’s no way and I’m sorry for her because I want her to be happy and I don’t think I bring her the joy she imagined would be there at all.

    I find myself just wanting to bring a happiness to her that doesn’t involve the above mentioned situations. I’d like for there to be a transcending of the anguish that is rectified some way to a resolve that has us better than a complacency of what this is.

    But there I digress because I know in doing this it’s a taking of action on both parts. I’m going to go to therapy. I’m going to continue taking care of myself. And there’s really not much else I can do other than what I’ve been trying to do. I feel that getting the puppy was a good idea that solidified a truth I don’t want to address. So maybe it was a bad idea I don’t know but I adore the puppy and I adore seeing the smile that she has with the puppy.  I don’t know I have some figuring out to do I’ll talk to you guys tomorrow.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for your support, I thank you for coming to the page again and again. Thank you for being awesome and being you.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Twenty-One, August 8th, 2024

    What is the most important thing to carry with you all the time?

    Hi-ho and hello.

    I’d say preferably my keys, of all things. Next it’d be my wallet, last my phone.

    Given the circumstances of being the stay-at-home father to a kid with autism, keys are a needed item to be used and on a near constant demand.

    There’s something about knowing they instill a security and physically implicate that security it’s a favored piece. It has a small key chain storm trooper from years ago and a beer opener that doesn’t open beer. Really though it’s the keys. That safety. ⛑️

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night.

    I thank you for the show of Support and for coming back again. Thank you for being you. Stay awesome.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM

  • Day Two Hundred & Twenty, August 7th, 2024

    Describe your life in an alternate universe.

    I’m a Meerkat, I have a dark splotch of black fur that looks like it was spilled onto me. It nearly looks oily due to the darkness of itself.

    My tribe is nineteen and I stand resolute as a guard. I have no partner but I find my way to the other small groups time and again making more pups.

    I’m young and virile, tenacious and quick, anxious and vicious. I protect.

    C’est La Vie

    Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. I thank you for the support and stating you. Thank you.

    NOSCE TE IPSUM