Hi-ho and hello.
This is a scribed recording of myself at 12:42 a.m on the 8th of July.
I will try my best to speak clearly, and not edit anything.
Midnight, midnight 45 actually, the rains softly falls up above. And I am perplexed, as a matter of fact I am much more than perplexed. I’m flummoxed, behooved, rattled, f****** frustrated as hell.
You ever go through a matter of weeks, days, and in this time you feel calm, even comfortable, safe, a solid and dare I say resolute stance seems to be had? And then, something happens, you forgot to delete something that doesn’t f****** matter because it’s that minute, that infinitesimal that it becomes something so distanced and neglected that it’s nothing, but then Fortuna, the gorgeous lady, s**** on you like a bird in the heat of summer?
And then what went from feeling peaceful and calm like the placid waters of a distant lake; turns to the devastation of a hurricane meeting a typhoon during a full moon.
Yesterday, I felt a dying calm, there was such a peace in my heart that if anything had gone wrong I don’t think it would have phased me, today is quite the contrary.
Now you think, ‘maybe it’d be the boys I’m talking about‘. It isn’t but at moments I wish it was.
It’s a daunting reality to this song:
There’s no buying of anything that can ever bring a solid and consistent variable of happiness. At least, that’s what I’m finding. And that leaves me here trying to decide on a few things.
Like: What am I going to let affect me?
How am I going to be? And what steps do I want to take?
The truth of the matter is, it’s a choice, everyday is a choice to be what you want to be. Do you choose to be gracious and kind, or brash, assertive, and overbearing? Do you want to make each step count? Or take a trip five steps back?
That’s where I am? Am I going to repeat on a path of the insanity route doing something the same with an expectation to there being a difference this time? Or is it wanting to make it the best it can be. It is a choice.
Choose.
C’est La Vie
Good night and good morning, good morning and good night. Thank you for the gracious support and coming time and again. I thank you.
May your night be bliss and the day be gracious and pleasant. Til tomorrow.
NOSCE TE IPSUM
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