Hello and hi-ho.
For any of you who are married or have been involved with your partner for over five years plus, I bring a question. How much time is to be allotted for the couple?
My biggest reason for this being dropped a tad later than I had wanted was due to a discussion that was had on the Tuesday, the 26th, about 80/20 time.
I was perplexed, and honest, I find myself confused still, and at a divided path for thought when thinking about not just myself, because, well, I can’t, I’m married and it’s not just me in the mix with life and the pursuit. But then comes a loaded question atop the previous; how much time is a partner supposed to keep available for one another?
My answer received yesterday was 80/20, the conversation went like this: “Could I help with anything, d’ya need anything from the kitchen before I leave the room?”
“I didn’t say I needed anything, god stop bugging me.”
“I was just asking.”
“You asked and I answered, I guess my answer just wasn’t what you wanted.”
*scoff* “sorry, I wasn’t meaning to annoy, just thought you’d appreciated it if I had asked.”
“You did and I answered, just stop, you’re bugging me.”
I became more than rife with fretting and a concern that has been lingering here for a minute as I see the minute inquiries, and small concerns issued are seeming to push and push with little or no friction previously. So I ask this:
How is this going to work then Love? I want to be here for you helping, not trying to bug, but I want to get a good idea how that looks, one day you want me on you, the next you want me further than a ten-foot post can reach. What is it?
“80/20.” she smiles thinking it’s nonchalant, maybe it is. Maybe it means nothing. Personally I’m troubled, it’s spring break, and I thought…I thought the week would be panning out differently, thought there’d be moments of us working together, working to be together but no, silence and shushing because I talk too much, ask too many questions and bother enough that the answer is 80/20.
Perplexed and exhausted. I’m going to go do some research about revitalizing and communication to see what steps to take to try to figure out what the f*** to do. The 80/20 crap has me feeling anxious and lost with what we are, especially now.
C’est la vie
Goodnight and Good morning, good morning and good night you beautiful souls, thank you for reading, we’ll talk soon.
Nosce Te Ipsum
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