It takes work.
I brush it off, shake my head and look to my wife. And think can we get through this? Can we set aside our differences and truly make a change or is this the stagnation that will kill what I feel has a potential for a peace we can find that happiness?
Life and the pursuit of whatever it is that’s wanted in life takes work, communication, and a willingness to face and address the issues with an open heart.
I go through my days questioning so much and asking myself what is it that I want? Truly what are the pursuits for happiness that I believe would bring that? It’s a conundrum that leaves me sitting in silence, or better yet with UE speakers around me enveloping me with an array of music that either staves off that worry, or brings a salt to wounds that I thought were gone.
What I’ve found is this, there are two opposing roads, like any street, going opposite directions, that’s marriage, it’s relationships, and what makes them more vital is a willingness to communicate the needs and wants of one another and to accept the love given without bashing and breaking down one another. I can’t speak for my wife, and though I’d love to talk about how I perceive what she shows, I’d need a tool to read minds that’d help finding out truth of her true wishes. But, that’s not how we work, we don’t talk about that, one stares off at the house, or into space, and ventures within, while the other scrolls, and enjoys reels, occasionally we meet in the middle. Luckily it works though, we support one another, we don’t crush each other’s dreams or predilections. We let it roll.
And maybe that’s what it is, maybe.
Love, peace, and happiness can only be attained and appreciated if one takes the time to roll with the frustrations, anxieties, and the chaos that is life.
C’est la vie
Good night and good morning, good morning and good night.
Nosce Te Ipsum
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